When my aunt passed away in May, I instinctually felt the need to get quiet, to go in and contemplate, mourn, cry, laugh - but in private. Generally speaking, I don't think I'm a particularly private person - I'll tell just about anybody, just about anything about my life. But in this instance, I really felt the need to be alone with my experience. I'm not attempting to place a judgement call on either end of the spectrum, just acknowledge that I have swung back and forth between those points.
So, months have passed, life has rolled on, and here we are. It's mid-summer and my heart is feeling full. I returned late last week from a 10 day trip back to Vancouver for my birthday and for the first time since moving to Los Angeles, going home, really felt like going on a holiday with all of my favorite people. Part of that is because I got to enjoy a girls spa weekend away with some of my lovely friends, but there's something more to it. Maybe it was the realization that there was no "work" for me to do while I was there. I didn't arrive with a to-do list, I just let myself take some time. As a result, my visit seemed to last longer, lacking that awful feeling of time too rapidly slipping through my fingers.
Even with the weekend away on Salt Spring Island, which we did have to plan in advance, once we got there, we really just let time unravel in an organic way. I can't claim that we saw or did everything there is to see and do on Salt Spring, but we all truly did relax and unwind. From spa treatments, to bike rides, lazy market mornings, to sitting around a real log burning fireplace and chatting, I can't remember the last time that I felt so at ease.
Now that I'm back, and settling (briefly) into the groove of work, home and social life, I feel compelled to MAKE myself TAKE more time. So, with that in mind, and just over a month left of summertime, here is a list of the things I'd still like to do this summer, that have nothing to do with dance or yoga, cleaning house, or managing responsibilities. They are things simply intended to make my heart feel full
Sommer's List of Summer Fun
1. Set up our portable hammock in the park and hang out with a good book
2. Treat myself to another pool day, preferably mid-week
3. Take more cool showers
4. Try a new raw restaurant or two
5. Buy a lovely beverage pitcher and make beautiful herbal iced teas
6. Spend some consistent and devoted time on my little container garden
7. Go stargazing
8. Spend a night or two camping up near Paso Robles with my husband
9. Visit Gentle Barn or Farm Sanctuary and connect with the animals
10. Go to Santa Barbara with my friend Felicia for the day
11. Re-commit to my meditation practice
Once we hit September, I know I'll have a whole different list of projects, ideas and explorations, but these are the ones that sound most appealing to me right now. They're really all about seeking out life's simple pleasures. If there's one thing I can take from the past few months it's this: life is a gift, live it, love it, each day as fully as you can and take no one for granted.
Namaste and big love,